Ano bang nafefeel ko ngayon? Sa totoo lang super kabado dahil 1st day ko ng OJT bukas. Wala akong idea sa mangyayari sakin bukas sa company. Bukod sa kaalaman na ma-OOP ako dun. Una, dahil introvert ako. Pangalawa, dahil ako pa lang yata ang OJT na magsisimula this week. Puro employees na yung kasama ko.
After all I've been through, why don't I feel I deserve this one?
Habang binabasa ko ang acceptance letter ng company ko, hindi ko mapigilan matawa. Ano ba tong pinasok ko? Bakit ako ang nandito ngayon? Kung maaga lang sana silang nagtawag sa mga students, e di sana pati yung mga classmate kong talagang deserving ay nagkaroon din ng chance magwork for them. Yung mga batchmate ko na hindi bumabagsak. Yung iba na Dean's Lister. But too late, nakahanap na sila ng ibang company so they turned down this one.
Tiempong wala pa akong company kaya isa ako sa mga nabingwit nila. Do I deserve this oportunity? Based on my school performance, NO. But based on my eagerness to learn as an individual, Definitely YES.
I may not be a good programmer as of the moment, but I can be with proper training.
After all, it's not a one way street. And at the end of day, it's not so much about who I was, and what my skills were before I joined the company, but what I have become at the end of the internship.
Anxiety Attacks.
Hindi ko mapigilan kabahan. Sobrang kaba ko this very second. Ang tagal ko ng nagstop sa coffee pero effect pa rin yata to ng caffeine overload nung 2nd sem. Hindi ko talaga alam mangyayari sakin sa OJT. Hindi kasi ako sanay mag-isa kasama ang maraming tao, siguro now's the time to overcome that fear.
Well, sabi nga ni Tyra Banks
..It's time to let yourself out of the box.
and
..Fake it til you make it.
Go yhan ,kaya mo yan!
Labels: Reflections
posted by yhan at 11:20 PM
Hi, wow... random blogs are awesome!
So ako eh ito isang confused na nilalang... to program or not to program, that's MY question. Trainee ako ngayon.. well I dunno.. kasi 2 days na kong hindi pumapasok. Kasi everytime I see production areas I get FRIGHTENED(sp?)... sige, scared nalang...
Well yea.. I'm just being random... and random congratulations to you... WOW @ Fake it till you make it Barbecue Banks quote.. THAT GOT ME THINKING...
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