Thursday, March 29, 2007
Disqualified
Our curriculum is requiring us a 300 hour internship with a company that would provide us with excellent training ground in the field of Information Technology.

I spent the whole day looking for reputable, multi-million dollar, multi-national companies that would be willing to accommodate me in my internship. I study at UST, therefore I am expecting a big and stable company wherein I could have my OJT.

As I look for prospective companies, I realize that I somehow do not possess the qualifications that these companies are looking for.


I have three failed subjects already.
Upon reading these requirements I started recalling all of my achievements, except those in elementary, and guess what.. I have zero.. none.. nada. For the past few years of my life, I did not have any achievements neither did I receive any non-academic awards. Gawd, that is disturbing.. really.

I saw an application form from Canon here in my room and I've decided to fill it out. Suddenly I stopped at the part where it asks me to jot down my honors, awards, scholarships, publications, academic, socio-civis, etra-curricular activities and other organizational memberships. I have been filling out application forms from various companies and that part never fails to make me feel like a total failure.

Am I being delusional for wanting to become part of giant companies when in reality, I some kinda don't have what it takes?

Seriously, I have the slightest bit of idea of what my course is all about. I was able to pass IT106 with a grade of 1.25 yet the only thing I know is the IEEE 802.xx number of wireless LAN, Bluetooth and MAN or whatever that is.
I don't know how to make a system using visual basic or php or sql shit. I am not actively participating in any university-wide or college organizations. I do not have any academic honors. Heck, i can't even surpass the second sem without having multiple 3.0 or 5.0 in the class card.. I am C-L-U-E-L-E-S-S.

Tomorrow,we'll be going to Makati and try our luck as walk-in applicants.

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Tuesday, March 27, 2007
4 AM Forever
Maybe I'll never see you smile again
Maybe you thought that it was all pretend;
All these words that I could never say
I just let them slip away

4 AM forever

Maybe one day when I can move along
Maybe someday when you can hear this song
You won't let it slip away

4 AM forever

And I'd wish the sun would never come
It's 4 AM and you are done
I hope you know you're letting go
It's 4 AM and I'm alone


-by Lostprophets

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posted by yhan at 10:22 PM | Permalink | 0 comments
Grandma.
last night ang first inuman session sa inuman series na mangyayari ngayong summer bago magfourth year.

Grandmatador=pure humiliation. kulang na lang yakapin ko na yung toilet bowl sa bahay ng kaklase ko.

leche kasi eh hindi ko na-contain yung sarili ko kagabi. i am not like that, usually i know when to stop para hindi ako malasing to avoid humiliating myself nga. leche talaga. so ayan na nga nangyari na, i humilitaed myself in front of my classmates at mukha akong tanga in fairness.

nagkita-kita ulit kami sa school kanina para sa consultation at kulang na lang takpan ko yung mukha ko sa sobrang hiya sa kanila.

grrr.

nakakahiya.

sana makalimutan na nila yung mga nangyari.

bago ko pala dasalan yung toilet bowl sa bahay ng classmate , may isang tao akong gustong tawagan. kahit ganun ako kabangag, naisip ko pa rin siya and i planned to call him pero tinawag na ako ng CR and the thought easily fled my mind. hmm. does it mean i still have feelings for him. haha. yuck ang korni ko. dammit.

ayoko na nga ganun. wag na ganun. haha.

salamat pala sa mga sumusunod:
- sa naglinis ng kalat ko.
- sa nag-abot ng tsinelas ko.
- sa nagbigay ng relos ko.
- sa nagtimpla ng kapeng may ice block kahit hindi ko inimon un.
- sa nagtimpla ng tunay na kapeng mainit.
- sa nagpatulog sakin sa bahay nila.
- sa naglagay ng yelo sa mukha ko kahit wala namang epekto un, bakit ko naman sinunod un??
- sa nagbigay ng tissue.
- sa nagtanong kung ok lang ako.
- sa katabi kong natulog. haha.
- sa nagbigay sakin ng bente. hehe..
- etc. =p

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